::  my honey thought it’d be good for us to get out of this house for a bit…to maybe even go grab us a bite to eat…

maybe even where other people might be…

and when i cleaned myself up…as best as i could…and got myself dressed…

i checked my reflection in the mirror one last time…and realized…

that to everyone else out there in the world…i’ll still “look” pregnant…

and that just didn’t seem right…

even dishonest somehow…

so i said to my honey, “i guess it just has to be okay if people look at me and think that i’m pregnant…”

and he just got soft on me and assured me that…yes…“that’d be just fine”…

and then i wondered out loud as i adjusted my skirt and my shirt around my middle…again…“and if someone asks when i’m due…i guess i’ll just say february…”

and he just smiled at me with that one particular smile…and an “that’d be fine too”…

and i just truly don’t know what else i could do…