#42
being reminded…the very first thing…as i worked away at my chores…
that i belong to Him…and not even the gates of hell can prevail against me!
and if not even that…then how can a little ol’ monday!?!
He is already victorious over all of my days!
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dear daddy-to-mine,
to mine…nine!
oh, my…
can you believe it?
you and me!
we get to share another new little someone!
i mean…just imagine that…
and wasn’t that just so…always…like Him?
when i went to press “publish” on that little post the other day…
and realized that my 9th monday’s reason to smile…
was about our 9th newest little someone!?!
hasn’t He just always been that kind of amazing?
His timing…even in the things seemingly so insignificant…is always…just so absolutely amazing like that!
yes…that’s just always been just so like Him…
His planting me right in front of you…His setting us on and leading us all along this sometimes-straight-but-more-times-than-not-twisty-turny path…His filling our arms with all these littles all along the way!
all…and every last little bit of it…just in His most amazingly perfect timing!
and, hey…have i ever told you how grateful i am to be sharing this path…and all these littles…with you?
how very grateful i am that they have you for their dad?
well…i am!
and i’m just hoping you’re feeling so very loved by all these littles today…
these mine…and yours!
‘cause you just so definitely are!
more than these…or any other words…could ever possibly say!
very sincerely,
me
#9
i felt it…
His unmistakable nudge…
and him and me…caught all-utterly-by-surprise…just shook our heads with a, “wait…what!?!”
and…“us?!?”
so we sought counsel from some much…much…wiser than us…
and they all said…“yes!”
and we sought more counsel from some of these 8 already…
and they all said…“YES!!!”
so we came to Him and said, “if You would…then…yes, please!”
and then…HE…
…did this!
#7
another laid His life down…for my sake…
and now i’m free!
and they…
…were willing to do the same!
dear gathering family,
wanna know one? just one of the many reasons why i love you?
‘cause every time i miss out on being there when you’re gathered…my family’s always sure to arrive back home after…my littles always bounding through the door…my honey always bringing up the rear…
them always all bubbling over with greetings…and well-wishes…and “we missed you’s”…
from so many of you!
“mama, elijah’s mom said to say “hi”!
and…“honey, mr. g. said to say that they love you…”
and even on that facebook…“missed seeing you today, sweet friend…”
and it just means so much…
because sometimes…like yesterday…i miss out ‘cause one (or a few) of our littles just feels too poorly…
or others…on account of this silly, oft-times-aching head…
but too-many-more times…many past gatherings over these past few years…i’ve just been struggling too much with this sadness…and just can’t seem to step out and get there…
and all those times…but especially those sad ones…your words meant so much!
‘cause when the last thing you think you can do is step outside that door…
to see people…and let them see you…
knowing they love you…
and them saying so…
is His using!
one of His means to speak…truth…
we are loved…beyond measure…by Him!
and He’s used you…and your words…to speak into my life so many, many times…
that very truth that i’ve so desperately needed to hear…and to hear…
He loves me!
and you!
and…oh…how i do too!
very sincerely,
me
my need of Him
i can’t be certain when it started creeping up on me…
i only know…that before i really knew it…being sad was an oftentimes overwhelming every day thing…
like these sometimes sneaky-wet, grey northwest skies in the spring…
the sun would here-and-there shine through unexpectedly…but before i’d have a chance to truly settle into it…more storm clouds would sneak right up on top of me…
and it left me faking…and hiding…and always so weary…
‘til finally…one morning-too-many i stood weeping in my shower…
and i just cried out to Him, “i’m just so tired of this!”
and He whispered back…just as He’s done two times before…“go find aletha.”
and then He brought her visiting our fellowship…the very next sunday…and i found her just standing there…
as if waiting for me…
and right there in the aisle, i just wept and choked out, “could we please meet?”
and on her sofa days later, i just begged, “please…just tell me. is this just more of being 40…just hormones…just what they call “midlife”? or am i just throwing some fit? am i simply sinning?”
and she was so dear to just listen to me…
and talk with me…
and ask…me…if we could “do this again” the following week…
and not just that next…but for weeks and weeks now…she’s poured herself into me…
and she’s prayed for me…
and she’s showed me where the hormones are raging…
and where the lies have been allowed to take hold…
and where i worry and fear and hold on to offenses…
and she’s laid her hands on my shoulders and showed me my sins…
and then gently turned me back ‘round towards Him…
and i marvel at His goodness towards me…
He heard my cry and He answered me!
and i owe her so much…and Him everything!
and as i’ve wrestled with this “being sad”…i’ve found myself asking…
“would i love You…if i didn’t need of You?”
and as the sun peaks through more…and lingers longer…
and as the clouds loom less and less…
i’m confident that it’s the always-in-need-of-Him…and His never-exhaustible grace towards me…that plunges me ever deeper and deeper in love!
and how blessed i am! for it’s my being sad…or my aching head…or my failings as his wife and their mama…or any number of reasons for my need of Him…that’s been the means of His never-exhaustible…simply unfathomable…grace towards me!
and in…that…i’m finding more and more every day…my every reason…for being glad…
even when…
our bible time’s left me pondering…
the “even when…”
even when He knew that one was about to betray Him…
He still got down on His knees and washed his feet…
not just the eleven…but every one of the twelve of them…
even…especially…He…did…
even when…
so then…why not me?
especially…
even when…