#27
…just him and me…
– waiting our turn at wanda’s
:: this morning i was squished-down cozy in our bed with the sweetest…just fresh…teeny baby…
and it was all still wrinkly…and rosy…and wearing one of those sweet little white nighties that draws tight at the feet and folds over the hands…
and then my eyes fluttered open and focused on the sun filtering through our curtains…and the empty spot next to me in our bed…
and that just made me so sad…
dear blog,
it’s 8:37…in the a.m.…
and that little eian-boy’s still sleeping…
and i don’t know…
i just thought that i should maybe document this somewhere…
very sincerely,
me
#26
twenty six!
already…26 whole mondays…and my reasons to smile!
one whole half of one whole year…already!
some mondays i have had to look a little harder than on others…
but it’s been so true! that if i’ve tried even hardly at all…the more and more reasons i’ve found…a reason to smile!
#25
my very first (ever) batches of sauce!
working at it and working at it…‘til my piggies were all squealing…and the shelf was all filled up…
…with months and months worth of munching upon!
his side of our bed
my honey’s office is in grampa’s old “wood shop”…
down in the basement…in the same room where my honey fashioned our bed…
his mother’s day gift to me when that boy o’ mine wasn’t yet all-the-way three…
but before that…his “office” was right in our room…right next to that bed…
and i’m beginning to realize how much i miss that…
because every once in awhile…on one of those days…when i just couldn’t catch hold of my breath…i’d just sneak into our room and snuggle down on his side of our bed…
his side…‘cause it was the side right next to his desk…and ‘cause his pillow smells just exactly like his head!
and i mostly liked to just lie there “next” to him while he worked…and just stare at him for a bit…
‘cause i liked how he focused so hard on his tasks…and paused to ponder with a stroke through his beard…and sometimes smiled a meant-for-me smile straight ahead…
or…especially…ever-so-casually flexed the one-of-my-many-favorite-pieces-of-him forearm muscles nearest to me…
‘cause he knows that they are…and that that would for sure coax a giggle out of me!
and i think he liked my staring times too…especially when i stared quietly…and not just distracted him with all of my “words”!
and then when my breath was almost all caught…i’d roll out of our bed…and stand right behind his chair…and wrap my arms around his neck…and stick my whole face right into the hairs on the top of his head…
‘cause it’s just one more of those many of my favorite pieces of him…that spot…
‘cause it smells just like his pillow…
only just fresh from his head!
and then i’d breathe him in…catching the last little bit of my breath…and then i’d give him a kiss on that spot…
and then i’d just move on…
back to my day and whatever was “next”…
until the next time i found myself all out of breath…
but now he’s not in there…he’s all that way downstairs…
and i can still trudge…all that way down…to breathe in his head…
but i find that it isn’t entirely the same…without that time first spent on his side of our bed…
#24
him…taking his little (‘cept for that littlest) men…
…on a quick-before-winter-sets-in overnight camping “trip”…
…even…and despite…the forecast for rain!
– alex’s images
dear sweet william,
even while sitting there next to me during the message today…you just couldn’t help but lean in close and whisper…“happy fall day!”
for days and for days, you’ve been asking and asking…“when is it fall?”
and finally…our calender says that today is the day!
it’s finally…officially…begun!
and so i leaned down…and smiled…and whispered a “thank you”…
and then my “shush”…and “listen”…were followed by your sheepish “okay”…
and on this first day…He’s sent a blustery wind and some glorious rain…
and now, here we both sit…
almost right back where we left off…
almost circled right back ‘round again…
with a lovely blaze in the hearth…and your little fingers just running and running right through my hairs…
just exactly the kind of day i’ve been looking so forward to since this fireplace went finally cold…all those days and days…and long days…ago!
just the best start to my most favorite time of the year!
fall…
oh, how i’ve missed it…
and this…
the wind blowing and rain falling outside…
and me…and some of my most favorite peoples…all squished cozy together to knit…and to read…and to write…and to style…
all just right here ‘round this fire!
very sincerely,
me (your oh-so-happy-to-be-numb-again-some mama)
#23
today wasn’t easy…
truly…just the naughtiest…straight up…monday!
but then near the end…
there was beef stew, buttered bread…and an autumn rain…
just such a seemingly insignificant thing…
and yet…more than reason enough…
even for this monday…